I'm fond of the saying "Kindness costs me nothing." Kindness, compassion, empathy; these aren't new concepts to me but they're things I'm trying so much harder to implement on a daily basis. For a long time I was an angry person, growing bitter from the experiences of my life and stewing in my own juices thanks to a lack of options. Earlier this year I realized I could continue to grow hard and bitter - become a rock instead of just having a rocky exterior, or I could be clay and adapt to my life. As I wrote lately, we've harvested the fruit of that decision already, having moved into our new apartment. We've been here almost 2 full weeks now.
This is Kwan Yin, the Goddess of Compassion. She's sometimes called a Buddha but that's not technically true as she denied herself complete enlightenment in order to stay on earth and answer everything's pleas for mercy or help. While setting up a home altar for the first time in two years I pulled her card as the goddess I needed to listen too the most, who would call me to Serve if she saw fit. Ok then! The first thing I know I need to do is forgive myself for the bad choices that have led us to where we are; not going to Kitchener was a big mistake, and staying in the Soo the following year was too. Hindsight is 20/20 and all that, but I should never let comfort or fear make my decisions for me. I've done that far too much in the past and if I continue to do so I wont have anything to look back on but regrets.